Wishlist *Updated

okay, yes i know, i know, i feel mean too for not posting anything meaningful but suddenly coming up with a wishlist.
but it's the only thing i feel like posting up right now. :D
well, i'll post up some of the thoughts i wrote in my 'thoughts & ideas' book... not some, all, as a reward for you ghosts people reading my blog. :)

so here! the wishlist!
(anyway, the links to my previous wishlists : 2010's, 2011's)

1. Switchfoot previous albums (The Legend of Chin, New Way to Be Human, Learning to Breathe, The Beautiful Letdown, Nothing Is Sound)
2. Switchfoot merchandise (you may refer to 2011's wishlist for links)
3. an Arsenal jersey!
4. ink pens, ball point pens, marker pens?
5. oh this is quite new, left handed pens. because i just found out that ALL my pens don't like me cause i'm left-handed and the ink dries up ALL the time. go google for more info on left handed pens. :)
6. those Vincci lime green flats/sandals/whatever you call 'em. i'm size 9! :D
7. green t-shirts forever! well actually, any t-shirts will do. heh
8. food! (eg. seaweed!, chocolates, potato chips, oreos, or bake me brownies/chocolate chip cookies!) you know i love food lor, don't you?
9. hair accessories (don't know why i bother. lol)
10. any magazines with interesting articles (cause i read really interesting articles in the Times magazine about Lionel Messi and introverts the other day. doesn't matter if it's outdated. :D    )
11. new headphones
12. cool bags? this is a bit risky to buy though as my taste in 'fashion' is pretty complex and unusual
13. Owl City albums (i don't own any original Owl City albums)
14. Owl City merchandise (check this out)
15. anything One Direction!!! :D
16. if you're from KL, you should get me Busco's In Search Of EP!
17. oh, this one's an old wish. get me a Playstation 1, Suikoden, Suikoden II and Harvest Moon : Back To Nature! :D
18. oh! you can belanja me Chatime(brown rice green milk tea with grass jelly) or Baskin Robbins!
19. colourful handmade birthday cards are like the cutest besides handwritten letters! :)
20. well, honestly, i'll appreciate anything you get for me even if it's just a leaf with my name on it or whatever.

well of course, i just post a wishlist up for fun.
i know i'll only get one or two items on the list, but really, i'll be happy with whatever you give me.
the most precious thing i can get is your friendship :)
so yes,
i hope everyone has a great week ahead!
stay positive cause there's always hope in God
He'll never leave, He'll never fail
so look up when you're down! :D

God bless you!

so why do people blog about what they're feeling?
what if what you're feeling is really impulsive or childish or horrible,
would you still blog about it?



i do want to blog everything i feel
but sometimes i don't see the point in it
i find it somewhat attention seeking
because yes, sometimes i think i blog about my feelings so that people will pay attention to my life...
this is already blogging about what i feel
and it may be impulsive or childish

but i don't know

Not Over You - Gavin DeGraw

i forgot to put this picture with yesterday's post :P

Finally i'm Forced To Face The Truth...

no matter what i say i'm not over you



Gavin DeGraw's Not Over You has been on replay for the past few days. found some really good covers too :)
i realize that this will all be only just a dream

we know that the first stage is the prettiest
your heart goes crazy just at the sight of his name/picture
you go crazy when he talks to you
it's so crazy that you start smiling like an idiot..
but the problem is, will this all just be left there?
i mean there's literally no space for us to grow
we're stunted
i don't see us happening in the future
so,
Conclusion : i'm an idealistic realist.

we know that the latter stage is the ugliest
you're either broken or it isn't a pretty sight
your heart still goes crazy at the sight of his name/picture
you still go crazy when he talks to you
it's so crazy that you heart heaves a sigh because you remember all the times he talked to you
but the problem is, will this all just be left there?
i mean we built us up, then tear us down, like an old abandoned house
we're no longer what we used to be
i don't see us happening in the future
so,
Conclusion : i'm an idealistic realist.


what i'm saying may not make sense. i don't even understand some of the words i'm using.

but i look around, and i see people in love.
but i can't determine my own love.
i am not in a rush,
and i know love is waiting,
love will wait, but what does it take to know you're in love?
what does it take to know that you're ready for a commitment?


just curious :)
i type what i think

28th November 2011

Alone in nature with the perfect breeze,
Fine, i'm actually on a balcony
The balcony of my hotel room
facing the sky,
The mountains & greens, so perfect, alike.
I hear the artificial waterfall, down below
not all natural but soothing enough
Tis' my escape, i've always adored,
away from the pace, where i come from.
Here, i watch as the cloud move by,
wondering if humans have grace alike,
oh God, how wonderful Your creation be,
oh God, how beautiful, all the abandonment i see,
I see Your power in the sky,
I see Your glory shine so bright,
I see You paint the clouds go by,
I see You paint the colours tonight.

*

well, i wrote that when i was in Cameron Highlands last year :)