Almost New Year

i'm gonna make my maggi in a cup at 11.45pm
eat slowly
at midnight, i'll drink everything up!

2009,
where i let go of Your hand
and tried living on my own
where i blew out the fire
cause it was too hot to handle
where i tried to live a life without You
but failed because i know what it feels like to have You
where i learn my lesson
and i found out i really cannot live without You
where i keep straying away
but You kept drawing me back to You
where i keep seeing how awesome my Jesus is
and learn to love each and every day, more
where i keep failing
but Your mercy will still forever remain

how could greater love than this every possibly exist?

to 2010, a year that i will keep failing, cause after all, i am still only human
to 2010, a year that will be full of smiles because of what God has given me, you
to 2010, a year that will hold more hello's and many more goodbye's
to 2010, a year that i will live all for Jesus, i pray
to 2010,
or just, 2010, i surrender to Jesus!
this life, take over!

have an awesome celebration, small or big, chips and sparkling juice or no chips or sparkling juice, maggi or no maggi, friends or no friends, alone or not alone, you know that the year ahead will be full of joy, sorrow, and not forgetting, smiles and laughter.

God bless you all!
thank you so much for still reading my blog!
thank you all so much for everything!

hear my heart cry, Your love is everything
hear my heart cry, take over my life!

Lost but Believing

looking everywhere and i see no one
sometimes i wonder if You are ever there
but then these doubts break at the next count
i feel Your embrace again

these doubts are not enough to break me
these doubts only can shake me
but i will not be moved


new year's only day after tomorrow,
what are you gonna do about your life?
this is your life, are you who you wanna be?

this is my life, am i who i wanna be?

God bless!

i have decided,
i have resolved
to wait upon You, Lord
my Rock and Redeemer,
my Shield and Reward,
i'll wait upon You, Lord

as surely as the sun will rise,
You'll come to us,
certain as the dawn appears,
You'll come
let Your glory fall as You respond to us
Spirit, rain!
flood into my thirsty heart again!
You'll come
You'll come
-i believe

Jersey Rush, Jersey Fuss

Hugo's birthday is today!
Hugo's birthday PARTY is today!
Hugo's birthday party's 'dress code' is football jersey
Hugo is a Manchester United fan.
i am not a Manchester United fan.
i will not be wearing a Manchester United jersey.
i don't know if i am gonna wear a football jersey.

my brother's getting it for me.
i pray that Ben finds his jersey. lol.

going shopping for ingredients to make some drink.

after Hugo's party, i am officially grounded.
its been a long time since i was grounded.
and when i was grounded, i was five or six,
i was not allowed to go cycling.
that was what i was grounded for, cycling everyday.
weird, right?
no, actually, i was grounded because i went out cycling everyday and came back at only seven.
it was late for a five or six year old girl alright!

so yeah, grounded till, i don't know when.

but yeah, this is my first time getting grounded in like 8 years+
gonna enjoy it!
i'm excited, surprisingly.
weird kid, i am

God bless!

You saw me,
when You took the crown of thorns
and Your love washes over me

Now We're Back To The Beginning

its just a feeling and no one knows yet
but just because they can't feel too
doesn't mean that you have to forget
let your memories grow stronger and stronger
til' they're before your eyes

new year's coming soon
i remember last year's resolutions
what a fail

actually. i don't remember what exactly it was. so yeah.

looking back, i realize how blessed i am.
with really good food,
a comfortable bed, pillow, bolster and blanket,
a good school bag, good stationary
good friends, best friends, very kind confidants,
... okay, there's this long list and many stuff are not listed.
so you get it, i am very blessed with so much.

i forgot what i wanted to say...

haha. but anyway,
God really has been faithful all these while
He never once left me alone.
i don't know how i could ever thank You for what You've done at Calvary,
what more, for all You've given to me?

God bless!

i know that You're alive!
You came to fix my broken life
i'll sing to glorify
Your holy Name, Jesus Christ

Christmas is All About Jesus!

this year's Christmas has been a busy, apathetic one
surprisingly, i was not that excited.
before youth camp was all the planning, and yeah, nothing much was done.

after youth camp, we all rushed everything! haha
not like we had a choice though.
so here's what happened after camp,

Thursday night - my relatives were back, so we went for dinner.
Friday - we had deco prep the whole day
Saturday - we 'finished' the deco and started our rehearsal's.
Sunday was the day - everything went fine, took lots of family photo's. went Christmas shopping right after church. went back home to change and straight off for caroling.
Monday - i woke up late, went online and then to Jusco for 'Christmas shopping'. did not buy much. so yea, went to Marcus' house and then to caroling.
Tuesday - Khaleeja's birthday! went to Parade till 7.15pm, straight off to pasar malam.
Wednesday - Pei Qi's birthday! went to lepak with them and then came home and online.
Thursday - Christmas eve! i still had no Christmas spirit in me though. started rushing to finish off the Christmas writing and presents and all. at night, went to Christmas eve service at CGMC.
Friday (today) - went to Phil's house for a Christmas lunch & 'movie watching marathon' watched 2 and a half movies!
Saturday (tomorrow) - will be going to Jenny's house for Christmas dinner!

there's a busy busy week!

there seriously was no Christmas spirit till i watched Barbie : A Christmas Carol
it sounds stupid, even to me, but yeah. there's where i remember the joy of giving.
it touches my heart how someone so... horrible can be changed to someone so nice and loving.
but i believe only God can touch the hearts of those 'horrible' people.

anyway, to Jesus,
Happy birthday, Jesus! thank You so much for coming down to earth as a human having have to face temptation just like any of us, then dying for all our sins, forgiving all our sins, and giving us freedom to live! thank You so much that You have chose to exist in my life! help me to live for You and You alone! and again, thank You for dying for ALL HUMAN RACE! (:

God bless!

All glory to the God of grace
All glory to the Lamb who takes our sin
All glory to the Name above all names
Surely Your love has saved us

Here's A Short Post

to my 'very dear' leader of ASA

thank you for forgiving me!
thanks for being such an awesome leader!
thanks for supporting each and every one of us!
thanks for always motivating us!
thanks for always taking care of us!
thanks for being patient with me!
thanks for tolerating my nonsense! haha

but yeah, thanks for everything.
ASA wouldn't have been awesome without you!
continue shining for God! :D

Kiss Me Goodbye, i'm defying gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And never bring me down!

Reuben introduced the song to me.
nice song! (:
its ... suitable for the situation
haha

Jesus has set us free!
Christmas to me, is the birth of Jesus, the birth of freedom!

God bless!

You know that, i love You
You know that, i want to know You so much more
more than i had before!

So Many Busy Days

the days have been busy

busy but fun

read a few blogs

going off to lunch

how have i been lately?

i have been good and bad

good that i was always happy

bad that i let little things affect my emotions

you know what? you're right

you understood me so well

i realize i don't love you as what i have loved you anymore

i love you more like a brother

i think of you more like a brother

and liking a brother in a way, like, you have a crush on him is wrong

so yea, i love you more as a brother

so you know what?

'heartbreaking' days are over!

all those jealousy and blablabla

was useless

it never was anything,

it was something that i thought it was but wasn't

*this was a very rushed post, forgive me

caroling was fun!

this years christmas is sure to be good!

i believe

cause christmas to me is the birth of freedom

God bless!

Dear Sunshine ,

So I'm Not Complaining

CGMC Youth Camp '09

so yeah, everything was not bad

nothing much to say

i said my account would be on the blog

but yeah,

'can't find much to say'

except that God is a good God

and He is preparing me for a change

with Christ in the vessel i can smile in the storm


God bless

God so loved the world that He gave His only Son

Got Me Ten Feet Off The Ground

i have learn to let you go
time to tell the world i don't love you anymore
time to give freedom to those who can give much more happiness to that person
time to set you free and let you fly

youth camp is tomorrow!

will blog soon.
got no time on my hands
time slipped away
gotta go chase time
(:

God bless!

a thousand times i fail
still Your mercy remains
should i stumble again?
i'm caught in Your grace

Scream-Singing

its raining! start scream-singing!
loose those voices!
who cares if camp is coming?
loose more voice!
haha. just kidding.

i always wanted to loose my voice, not on purpose.
but yeah, my voice to cekap already. :P


went to KFC for dinner (:
nothing much.
tomorrow there'll be a CG cook out again.
hahah. our CG loves cooking huh. :P
but then again, we only have one main 'pro' cook.
or two. and those two are siblings.
the rest of us, just follow instructions
HAHA.
i won't be following them shopping.
i wanna sleep. :P
so yeah, at night i'll be going some place.


& i broke a guitar string!!!
and not my guitar, my brother's. hahahaha.
so sad, still cannot break my own guitar string. :(
gotta buy him a new one soon.

we're just like broken strings
we'll have to break someday
but we can fix it back, not anymore like before
but we'll make new memories
but it won't last for long
we're just like broken strings
we'll have to break again

God bless!

what to say? Lord, its You who gave me life
and i can't explain just how much You mean to me now
that You have saved me
Lord, i give all that i am to You
that everyday i can be a light that shines Your name

life tries to get you to fall
you threaten others , saying you wanna fall
nobody believes you because you choose to fall in such a beautiful sea fountain
you get even more frustrated cause all you wanted was one soul to give you attention

now, what a kid we've always been
time to grow up and let everything else be

by the way, planet earth does not turn slowly
thanks Leena, you got me liking the song ):

He Took The Fall Just To Save My Soul

my mum called me at eight thirty
to ask if John could come over
at nine fifteen, aunt called
'you awake now right?'
'yeah.'
hahahaha.

i admit, he does get on my nerves.
nevertheless, his still my cousin, i still have to play ps2 with him.
personality tests are fake?
i prefer playing ps2 on my own. not with a whole big group. HAHA
but yeah, he doesn't want to play with me either. HAHA
that's because i don't usually play the games he likes playing.
i'm a girl! you have to understand that! haha.

Shaun and Abel entertaining him now
thank God for a brother. :P

tonight got pasar malam
later gonna go buy tickets to watch Princess & The Frog with John & mum.
tomorrow going out with Khaleeja and other people we have not called yet.
Thursday going to watch Princess & The Frog.
Friday going for CG cookout & some dinner.
Saturday going to church for youth and my uncle's house for house warming.
Sunday go church as usual.
Monday - Youth Camp until Thursday.

i like it! (:

waiting for lunch now
and i have to fry nuggets
yeah, guess for who. :P

God bless!

*this was posted later than supposed

Inability To Move

its painful to move!
my bones or muscles, whichever, feels ... ouch. horrible.
i can't even walk properly. its either Kampung Games or the position i slept in last night.

currently disappointed.
all the relationship craze...
its getting me confused.
people do believe in .. what? 'testing the waters'?
its like, getting some guy to do an experiment with you.
wow. that's possible!
i want someone to do the experiment with me too!

no, i was kidding.
i'm on the ... no-side.
not my place to decide for my friend's life anyway.

i'm just.. confused.
yeah.



anyway, tomorrow, pasar malam!
8pm - chau tau fu stall!

God bless!

I Made A List Of Seven

looking through pictures of others on facebook just now
came across this!the left two are siblings.
the middle one is so pretty!
the right one is super photogenic!
the one on the left... he reminds me of someone. i don't know who. but, handsome boy he is! :)

the camp form and the money is on my left
what will happen if i forget to bring it along? :O

(:
God bless!

my God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above

All I Want For Christmas is The Boy Of My Dreams!

you can take these presents, underneath my tree!
you can take this awesome scarf my grandma made for me
you can take these boxes, tied up in strings
cause all i want for Christmas is the boy of my dreams!

listening to Disney's Christmas Album '08
i like it! :P

tomorrow's my dad's birthday
he ask me go evening walk with him today
):
i'm a dog that dislikes going out
but loves walks
get me a treadmill
it'll do all of us good! (:

ahh, but anyway, i still have to go.

yesterday, the house had a 30 second black-out.
it occurred while i was playing Harvest Moon
how sad!
so yeah, now no mood to play.
gonna lend it to Jonathan soon.
so yeah. i'll start playing tonight? or Monday. :P

looking for suitable Christmas skits/stuff to act is hard.
very hard. why don't, we come up with our own?
): lack of time!

God bless!

all for love, the Father gave
only love can make a way
all for love, the heavens cry
for love was crucified

oh, how many times, have i broken Your heart?
still You forgive, if only i ask
oh, how many times, have You heard me pray?
draw near to me

Bangau-fied

if i did not mention already, my brother is in Penang.
yesterday, i stayed up till two thirty cause i got to send him off.
on the way there, A Cross The Earth Tear Down The Walls was playing
haha. yea. both of us sang. i think my dad was annoyed. lol. or already used to it.
on the way back, i didn't feel like singing...
weird.
but yeah, i'm gonna miss him when he goes to college/U next time. ):
i hope he stays for form six!!!!
then he can fetch me makan everyday! or every week due to his laziness!

on the way back, i saw three weird things,

1. some car entering JJ at 1.50 AM
2. 2 people walking to someplace at 2 AM
3. some youth sitting/sleeping at the railway station like statues.

scary-fying i tell you! the third one especially!
but yeah, that's all. hahahaha.

God bless!

You're the One who gives me shelter
You're the light that leads me home
You're love that gave forever
Lord, You're all that i know

This Strong Hand... & A Fragile Heart

It’s not the kind of love you feel when you want to be with someone, it’s the kind of love you feel when you know you always want that person in your life.

-Bella Cullen

found that on some web page i'm not gonna tell you about.
but yeah. just an insight on how i feel. about... (this is getting harder to say everyday)
about the 'Jacob'.
yeah.


hahahaha. what a stupid thing to write.
was supposed to go to some youth event at HTS
but parents don't let ):

suppose to go LYPG tomorrow.
don't know though.

i want sushi!

ooh. someone just told me something....
happy-fying!
awesome!
haha. i feel all so warm and fuzzy inside...
okay, i don't. but yeah, i feel fuzzy inside. :P
:)
not telling you anything.
i can't . :P
whee.

i wonder what i'm gonna do tonight.

God bless!

Arm Wrestling

was looking through some pictures just now
and i think that arm wrestling is a good way for a guy, or a girl, to hold the other person's hand as tight as they want. HAHAHAHA. so funny! :P
they must like each other! oooohhh! :P

ignore me!

lalalalalala~

God bless!

Picture Perfect!

there is someone out there
that someone, God made, to make the purpose of my life a complete one
to help me grow stronger
to help me when i fall
that someone, God made, to make my life picture perfect,
His life picture for me perfect...


2012
i was laughing, or smiling, during the first half at all the horror
don't ask me why, cause i don't know.
i just felt like smiling.
then after that, it got too sad, i stopped smiling and started holding my heart.
i started yawning. haha.

went to Old Town Kopitiam with Abel and Serene after that to meet up with Shaun and Aaron.
was very sleepy there.
went back at around 11:40 PM
so way past my bed time.
nobody gave me any lecture though. :|

i woke up at 11:40 AM this morning.
go eat. then bathe. then play ps2! wheee
i feel so happy. (:
whole afternoon play ps2. then online. then brother cooked, with supervision of mother of course.
so yeah, pretty much sums up my day.

tomorrow going to Shernice's house to jam.
i already thought of a Christmas present for her.
but i'll have to continue saving up for it. :P

oh! to think of it!
Christmas is just around the corner!
time to turn on those Christmas albums!
thinking of one,
if you love me so, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

God bless!

hear my heart cry,
Your love is everything!

silence is golden
something that we all keep forgetting
sometimes we should just shut up
and let it be
but some things needs our attention

but still, shut up if you don't know if what you say will make anything better.


-off to watch 2012 . or dinner first, then 2012. (:
three days without the sunshine will be pretty gloomy. will be pretty cold. but i'm gonna make the best out of the three days anyway. (:

God bless!

i don't care what it costs anymore
cause You gave it all, and i'm following You
i don't care what it takes anymore,
no matter what happens, i'm going Your way!