Saturday, July 30, 2011

Poetical much. . . #3

14 July

I feel like a failure
Somedays I wanna be normal for a bit
I want to, again, fly off some tall building
I don't feel like living anymore

But i find comfort & strength
Not of my own
I find it from God.
I find my purpose in living
Because of Him

all i know, is i find rest in You.

*

20 July

I am too lazy to write something that rhymes.
Could i be stressed subconsciously?
I still wake up in the early mornings ;
wondering why the alarm hasn't rung/thinking i should be awake/to pull on my blanket on.
but seriously, how on earth is that possible?
And today i am wondering,
why our relationship status, why our PURITY is taken for granted?
I find no purpose in this world. I only see a reason to live in Him

all i know, if i find rest in You.

*

that was a few weeks ago (:

i've been pretty busy.
but not really also lah :P

went out with Carmen, Khalee and Leena just now
walked to Burger King (Burber King!) from Ipoh Timur
walking doesn't seem troublesome anymore :)
we went to Tokutokuya and bought matching bottles (yes, we are weird)
then we studied at Burger King while talking and doing nonsense!
we ate fries and drank lots of coke

not much after that, but it was a good girls time out!


monthly test soon.


God is good all the time! :D


You're everything

God bless ! :)

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Poetical much. . . #2

5 July

I find the nights longer
Or was I half awake?
The wait never felt so long
I never found myself awaiting dawn.

*

it's possible, a mental breakdown on the way
it is my fault anyway:
  • i don't manage my time well - i think and think about what i should not.
but even when i turn it off & blame myself, the outcome feels the same

*

there's a song that's inside of my soul.
it's the one that i've tried to write over & over again.
i'm awake in the infinite cold!

i hear him singing,
"do you love me enough to let me go?"
is this in my head?
i don't know what to think.

*

again, stuff i write in my notebook.
not much to say, i suppose.
good bye.

God bless!

Monday, July 4, 2011

Cause Regrets Are All That Fills My Mind?

yes,
at one point i said to myself, "this is worth trying! this is the one thing i know i won't regret trying. this is the one thing that i'll regret NOT trying to do"

okay, well that point is over.
i regret doing it
why do i even try?!
is it getting too obvious?
why am i doing what i'm doing?
why do i even try?
why do i care?
why does my heart heave a sigh?
why does my heart feels like it has dropped to the depths of the sea?
why does my heart feel so heavy just thinking about it?

i don't even know what to feel.

should i just give in?
should i just let it go?


*

arghhh!
this is probably the saddest week of the year
meltdown!

what a way to start the second half of the year
saying goodbye?
hmm, saying goodbye reminds me! i need to post up the story i wrote for my mid-year exam!..
that's beside the point!
anyway, the second half of the year greeted me with goodbyes
don't know how i'll let go of the friends i practically grew up with
don't know how i'll let go




God bless!