Sunday, September 25, 2011

Poetical Much #5

5 September

very funny,
how what i do, is always wrong
is never right
in your eyes.

very funny,
why for the first time,
finishing my holiday homework, though not on time
still isn't right
in your eyes

me not working hard? picture that with a kodak.

very funny,
how you know i'm a phlegmatic-sanguine
but say that all that days i sat studying with no modem
is not called working hard.
in your eyes.

very funny,
how that string of 7 A's, no failings or D's, just C's
doesn't scream "GOOD RESULTS"
in your eyes.

very funny, how a heartless couple
could have begotten a girl
so fragile, so emotional.
in your eyes.

i don't quite know how to say how i feel.
just some random kind words made all the difference.
what is wrong with me, Lord?


7 September
funny how selfishness kills you softly inside.

being selfish is subjective, literally.
why do we care so much about ourselves?

but really, why are we taken for granted?
why does our emotional needs get ignored?

i would rather teach you than give you my answers
& hearing you blab with someone not me makes my soul bleed.

why do you have so much to say to her,
but nothing to tell me?

funny how people rarely say thank you after borrowing my homework
especially after she rudely asks me with no 'please' for it.


22 September
life is like a prism
it can create a rainbow if placed properly at light
but the continual shine can be painful sometimes.

when will i be able to see him again?
my raging hormones are seriously annoying me.
interest in every nice guy,
crap this sucks.
maybe if he was here, it wouldn't be like this.
if i still liked digi, it wouldn't  be like this.
but it would also mean i'd be obssessed.
so yes, i'd prefer it likes this.
then when it gets out of hand, i'd prefer it not.
oooh, i wanna glow in the dark!
kid with a bullet soul (: ooh, love is the one true innovation > is also the only art (:

i'll find repose in new ways.

it's just so funny how interested you are in my life.
you don't even want to see my report card,
obviously that string of 8 A's, 1 B, 2 C's doesn't concern you.
you just want me to get good results so that you don't have to pay for my tertiery education.

why am i not used to this constant under appreciation?

it's also funny how he only said "Why always C for Sejarah?"
"B+? Pengetahuan Moral" *Signs paper.
Nice to know that you can't see that friggin' 3 A+'s.

why am i hurt? is this selfishness? mere self pity, maybe!

i miss having a best friend.
i've lost a few.
when will i make a new one/start trusting?
why have i closed off from the world?
why am i like this?

God, i don't wanna think all about myself.
but it hurts. so Lord, i'm surrendering my cares to You.
You're all i'm holding on to.

cause yes, my tears are invisible.

it's really nice to know that someone still cares that you're doing well in school academically.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Not A Goner. Am Still A Proud Gooner!

(a frustrated, brainless, don't-know-much gooner's post. you have the right to ignore)

to think of it,
i was almost in love with Koscielny...
must have been the way he talked about him on Arseblog Liveblog during the Dortmund game.

first off,
complaints about Blackburn

why their face so LC wan?????
okay fine,
maybe not

(not that it matters much, but..)
he always kick wan ma, then his kicks all swerve dunno go where wan. -.-

that Yakubu lah. LC fella
then olsson also
he was seriously kidding man
what kind of 'foul' was that?
was that EVEN a foul?

and that offside goal! i don't know much,
(well, yea, i didn't know it was offside lah)

okay, back to the team.
we should blame Blackburn eh?
no sorelosering now.

the first half was good.
very the proud of them!
we had possession and all
then second half,
two own goals
another one from that yakubu

this post is just to let out my frustration
and to tell you that i will NOT ever forsake this club.
they don't need me,
but i am gonna support them!

i don't give a cent lah that the darn media is rubbing salt on the wound!
rub summore lah rub!
it's been so painful that i don't mind it being so much more painful!

we gooners will take the pain
because we know those there are in more pain than we are experiencing

i may make very little sense right now
that is because this post is very much based on my emotions
and if you didn't already know, my emotions are not very trust-worthy

well yeah! i still want my Arsenal jersey!

i still don't understand
why are the fans losing hope?
yeah it's terrible
yeah it's painful
yeah it's nonsensical

i have nothing else to say but,

Arsenal, i am still on your side.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Pale Silver Lining

i hear the after-rain waters
on the ground
splashed around
by the cars that run

i see them kids
in colourful raincoats
i see them playing
in the puddles by rain

it's still drizzling
but i'm here,
just right outside
the corridor of shelter

i am amazed
at the wonders, You made
at the skies, no haze
at the wind, like a gale

and i think about you over there
an hour earlier,
you're seeing the sunset already
the night approaching

well, yes, it's fading
but i'm memorizing
how i feel
cause when you come back,
it may all return again.

random poem :) just cause i miss all of you
just cause what He made is oh so very pretty! :D

God bless you all!

Friday, September 2, 2011

Black Cheongsam by Michelle Leong equals Happy Emo Emo

so much to tell you about, so little time.

well, the 'more important updates' are:...
okay fine, on second thought, i'd be nice to you since you won't be hearing from me for some time.

well, 23rd of August!
mom's birthday
i love her
wrote her a note that said,
"happy birthday, mummy! you *draws a rock my *draws the earth"
(it reads "you rock my world" if you still don't get it)
she started telling her friends on facebook.

24th of August
Siew Viann's birthday.
crashed her house once. crashed her house twice. :))))

26th of August
went to school since there was Moral Drama.
we didn't do that well.
everything was a mess, but hey, we tried! :)

started doing some of my holiday homework.
felt like a productive day. heh.
marked the start of my holidays that afternoon!
wheee, wheee, wheeeee, so excited! :D

27th August
worship practice for MYF at 10am-12pm
art class at 2pm-4pm
worship practice @ VCC at 4pm-5.45pm
Viann's house for Serene's farewell at 5.45pm-around 11.45pm
Fooh Singh(was that the name? lol) for the last supper with Serene, Joanne, Viann, Phil and Khian Lim until 12.45am

28th August
church at 9am-12.15pm (didn't get to stay for potbless ): sigh)
worship practice at MYF from 12.30pm-3pm
MYF 3pm-6.15pm
some newborn baby dinner of a cousin 7pm-9.30pm

29th August
went to Viann's house for fun and to play Monopoly Deal(2nd day in a row) from 2pm-5.15pm
dinner with Khalee, Leena, and Carmen at 5.15pm-7pm
walked around Jusco with Khalee and Carmen from 7pm-8.30pm (they claimed that whenever you go in a shop with me, you don't get out for quite some time! :P)

30th August
watched Cars 2 with Abel and Joanne at 10.40am-12.30pm
impromptu lunch plans. called Khoo Chong Lay and Viann! at Lee's(formerly known as Lee's Burgers) 12.45pm-around 2.45pm
Jusco with them.
played Monopoly Deal at KFC(3rd day in a row)
went back home at like 5

LOL i am a terrible fail.
i'm so sorry for not posting this on time or even finishing it! :P

i'll be back one day. good bye! :)