Monday, April 16, 2012

A Beautiful Letdown

why do we fall for people?
why do we fall for people who obviously like someone else & will never fall the same way for you?


it's pretty weird
we know that we shouldn't feel the way we do
but we continue building it up
like building a castle out of paper cups on a windy day at the beach
will not the cups fly toward the ocean or at any direction?
will you not be left brokenhearted?

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BECAUSE THE PAST IS PRESENT


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'We don't know what we're doing'
'Let's do it again'
Not in this case.
we don't know why these things happen
we are lost & confused
how do we fix things?
how do we relieve the pain?
how do we make each other laugh again?

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i hear the sound of my heart beating but 'a warm body don't mean i'm alive'

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'What time is it where you are?
i miss you more than anything'
'& it's driving me mad, i miss you so bad.'
is there someone i can build a fresh friendship with?
cause i've broken all that i had and i don't feel like fixing anything.
There's no point looking back anyway.

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God, chisel away. even though it hurts & it's painful, chisel away God, i know You'll never forsake me (:

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i just want a friend i can tell anything to!
talk to about ANYTHING!
an almost best friend! someone who'll tell me what's wrong.
someone who can sense when there's something wrong.
someone who knows that i actually hate the silence unless i'm happy.
that ultimately knows that i just need someone there for me. & will accept me for who i am & care.

i am a dark shadow
i don't know where i go
i don't know why people don't understand me
i don't know why me caring is misunderstood as something else
why won't anybody see through me?
see that i need love & care?
i'm just like every other human
i think others get more love than me
but nobody sees.

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Every lost friendship is like the rain, it rains, and rains & sometimes it floods. it destroys some of the things we have and things never seem to get better. but remember that the sun will shine again & the rain clouds are sure to go away. it won't rain forever & things will get better. take heart. (:

& friends are like the rain clouds (:
even when the rain clouds leave,
you still feel the loss of the friendship because you're still drenched

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i asked for the crash
the meltdown
to see that person with someone else ;
i got it.

because i know it was never meant to be.

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