Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Choices

    On some days, making a choice will do you no harm. On other days, making a choice is very crucial. Which day are you in? Or rather, which day am I in?

    I wake up to the sound of my alarm in the morning. I have a choice, to wake up, or to go back to sleep. Most days, I choose to wake up. Then, I have a choice to make again. Whether to make a cup of coffee, or a cup of tea. I could go on and on about all the choices I have to make each day, but let's cut to the chase. Are all choices easy to make?

    In my humble opinion, this generation, my generation, is plagued with indecisiveness. Why do I say that? Because even choosing where to eat can be so difficult. I mean, what's so hard? Your choices are plainly, Indian food, Malay food, Chinese food, Western food, Italian food... So maybe that's a very wide variety. That could be the problem, having too many choices. Let's be real, how many teenagers can confidently tell you what they want to become in the future? I , for one, can't seem to recall anyone. All my friends tell me that they are not sure.

    What are most ideal choices in life? I suppose that the majority will say that success is the most ideal choice in life. But even to achieve success there are many choices to make. Choices are associated with questions. The answer to your question would have to be one of your choices. So, what is success? What does it mean to you? How can you achieve it? What means are you going to use to attain success? This is where the choices made are important. This is where human standards differ. This is where people start to compromise.

    I like the idea of success being associated with choices. For me, choices are the roads or paths that will take you to success. As a teen, our ideas and concepts of life constantly change. My idea of success was like the graph in the stock exchange market. It changes so frequently that at last, I had no idea what it really means. But one day, I managed to decide and finally pen it down. So , it was like painting a picture of success and being sure that this is the picture that will always mean it.

    The world associates success with sunshine. In other words, when you succeed, you are shining. For awhile, I thought this means that you have to be famous, or that you have to earn lots of money. But I decided what success means to me. My choice of words for success is 'to accomplish what God's purpose for my life is'. It no longer means to 'look good in the eyes of the world'.

    After some more thinking, I realized that there are still choices to be made. Like how I have to choose to do things the right way. Like how I should never lie and cheat my way to 'success', or compromise. Many have chosen the road to destruction. They fail to see the danger in it. They start choosing that it's okay to lie. Then they choose that stealing is okay too. Yes, you've guessed right, next, they are doing much bigger crimes because whatever choice you make, opens up a bigger choice. So sometimes, if you choose that stealing is okay, you may one day choose that robbing is also okay.

    Many great people in the past have made choices. Some made fatal choices, while others were better at making them. At the end of the day, I want to be able to say that 'I have chosen the road less taken, and that has made all the difference', because the road less taken is the seemingly tougher road, but it will make all the difference.

    Choices are roads in life. Roads that you have to choose. Nobody wants to make choices that are fatal or wrong. We all want to make the right choices. But really, who can always make the right choice? We will make a wrong choice every once in a while. That's the beauty of life, learning that one choice is wrong the hard way, hence making it easier to find the correct choice. In a sentence, choices are to be carefully made.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Jonathan Khoo

turns 18!

happy 18th birthday, Khool-DDY-GanChan-Bassist!

Birthdays, what do they mean?
to me, it's a celebration, a celebration of the day you were born
celebrating the fact that you're well and alive today
celebrating the fact that you're my friend and that you made a whole lot of difference just by existing in my life

i guess birthdays wouldn't mean much if it's our own
we're all probably not used to 'celebrating' our own existence (HAHAHAHA)
but when it's a birthday of a very special friend,
it's important, it's of much value, it's a day worth celebrating


i really thank God that He sent you as a friend
i don't know if i ever told you,
but you were the ONLY ONE who was there in my time of need
2010, the year i felt very lost and alone

i remember how we first got close, it was through MSN if i'm not wrong, after ISCF '09
we didn't really have much to talk about, but we still talked anyway.
then in 2010, we both had problems of our own, and when you shared your problems to me, i finally found someone who can be a listening ear for me
and also, being in the same band for Youth Christmas Party that year! :D memories!


well, you were there for me at the time when i felt very lost and i am ever so grateful to God for you
don't ever underestimate your existence, because you've made a whole lot difference, not just in my life, but i believe in the lives of others too

cheers to the fact that we still can be friends despite our differences!
may you continue finding purpose in God and may the lessons you learn bring you closer to Him
continue shining for God in everything you do & never give up being a light in the lives of others!

all the best in the path God will lead you to in the near-future!

have a great year! :)

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

What Forts Are These?

it's harder to say "i'm not okay, but i really don't wanna talk about it"
than "i'm alright"

because i feel like a fool when i show you my true emotions
i am sorry, i am only human
i wish i was able to not feel annoyed or irritated


why do we feel hurt when people don't call us for an outing?
i want a proper answer.


giving up, i've been saying that a lot
i don't feel like working on anything
but my emotions aren't my masters
i won't do what i feel like doing
i will do what i know i should



because when you rely on your own strength,
when you decide that you should settle all your problems alone,
that's when you get frustrated, irritated and mad
you're like a pail of water, trying to regenerate more water with your own water, which isn't going to work
you need to be connected to the Source of Life,
you need to rely and depend on God's strength
that's what i need to do
i need to constantly remind myself,
that i am not my own, for i have been made new

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Nobody Said It Was Easy

giving up,
it feels like a vacation
i want to go on a vacation
i don't want to work anymore
i don't want to put in anymore effort


i'm odd
the piece that doesn't fit
the piece that is there for convenience
probably the frame of a puzzle,
nothing really ideally fits with me
every piece fits with other pieces,
and me?
i don't exactly 'fit'

it's times when you become sick
that you appreciate health
it's times when you feel alone
that you remember that you are not
it's times when you profess that you have learnt
that you are tested again, to prove that you have



i know, it's not going to be easy
the path isn't going to be wide and straight
there are gonna be loads of obstacles
and it's gonna get tiring

but "let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful."
for He has promised, "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

i thank God for speaking to me and comforting me
for being my peace in times of need