Monday, January 18, 2016

Wide-eyed

feels like i've been let down,
let down into the sea
it's not like i didn't expect it,
not like i didn't see it coming

but the waves are strong
 and the current attacks me
i feel water run through my nose
i feel like i could have died already

it has been quite some time,
some time since i've felt like this
since i've felt so suffocated
since i felt like i cannot breathe

it's a pain from the pressure
the pressure in my lungs
as the water fills my air channels
as i feel like i've drowned

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it's only been about 7 hours
since i said all those things
since i believed i was happy
since i believed i was weaned

i take it back
i am not sure anymore
i can't say the same
i wrote it all on a whim


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but it is here that i learn,
God is my Defense
in times i feel attacked,
that's when i feel that God is for me
at the front line, absorbing the impact

to swim,
to swim against the current,
to swim in the sea,
to swim to save
you don't get thrown in the sea for nothing


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may we never lose our wonder
wide eyed and mystified,
may we be just like a child,
staring at the beauty of our King